It has been a while since my last blog. Many things have happened. I changed to a new job. I was rejected by graduate schools. Our fellowship group had an amazing road trip. Lovers get married. My Pastor is leaving church. People’s beloved passed away. I lost my job. Life happens, all in the short span of 5 months.
July has just arrived. I am searching for a job and studying for upcoming standardized testing. The last time I have not had any type of job was in 2001. I really wonder what God has in store for me. This is the point in my life where I say, “God, I have no idea what you’re trying to do right now, but yet I will trust and praise you because you have the best plan in mind for me. Whatever comes out of this, one day I will look back and marvel at your glorious power. That is what God does for me on a daily basis. What have I done for Him lately? I wonder.
REACh youth summer camp was this past weekend. I am refreshed and rejuvenated! Spending four days with God and His people will do that. Just experiencing the fire of the Holy Spirit moving throughout leaves me exhausted. I have not seen that fire in five years. Maybe six. It’s not just the worship, it’s not just the message that made my heart burn again. What made it burn more than anything was I saw again how we as Christians, myself included, often harbors a hardened and selfish heart, yet at the same time we can turn around praise God fervently. Often times, we truly do not know what we are doing and can only hope the Lord forgives us in His wonderful mercy. But as Christians, should we be so ignorant as to not realize when we are not showing love? When Christians look at a person and simply chooses not to care, there is a problem. When a Christian sees a person walking toward himself and simply chooses to ignore that person, not even a smile, there is a problem. When Christians choose to exclude the weak, the unpopular, the annoying, the unwanted, there is a problem. Yes, many are still young, but one is never too young to love others. Shockingly, Jesus, our God, our king, the one we sing so hard to, LOVED others! He always chose to INCLUDE; He cared for the weak, the unpopular, the unwanted. The mere sight of the unsaved broke His heart and brought Him to tears. My heart for others has always been one of the weakest point of my Christian walk. With God’s help, I have grown immensely in this area, but one can never have to much love. I found something beautiful in the song Hosanna. It describes a person beautiful maturation and growth as a believer.
“Heal my heart and make it clean.
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like you have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks yours.
Everything I have for the kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.”
As we become a Christian and accept the Christ into our lives and the Holy Spirit into our hearts, God heals us and begins to purify us. As we become cleansed and draws closer to God, we gain a special spiritual discernment; we begin to understand what others cannot understand, we begin to have faith in seeing what cannot be seen with our eyes. As we grow in understanding and as we begin to see God, we develop a love for others as a response to God’s love to us. Having this love in our hearts, our hearts break when we see the oppress, the meek, the injustice, the sinful state of the world; much like how God’s heart breaks when He sees these things. What do we do with this heavy burden on our hearts? Well, we think back to the one who healed us and think how great it would be for others to have this love. As we realize the need for God in others lives, we will begin to devote everything we have to further God’s Kingdom; we would give it all to support His cause. That my dear brothers and sisters is how we should, nay how we MUST walk from this Earth into eternity. Hosanna means please save or save now. Indeed, Lord please save us now from our selfish selves. Give us that love that you have loved us with so that our heart breaks hard for what breaks your heart. AMEN!
